THY DESIGNS

Where have I sinned, O Lord? At what moment have I strayed from what Thou desirest of me? If Thou art discontent with me, why hast Thou not taken me from this world? Instead, Thou hast afflicted yet again those who succored me and loved me.

i do not understand Thy designs. I see no justice in Thy acts. In bearing the suffering Thou hast imposed on me. I am sorely wanting. Remove Thyself from my life, for I too am reduces to ruins, fire, and dust."


There. This clearly still reflects my thoughts. If good people are going to hell cos they does not follow Christ, then surely even if Im a Christian, i shall be burning in hell, cos im much much worse than them. =)


Matthew 5:45
He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous

everyone need healing, a kind word, a smile. In mine twisted believed, Christian, Buddhist and all, we are all God's children.



A passage from "The Fifth Mountain"

Every human being at some time had tragedy enter his life; it might be the destruction of a city, the death of a son, an unproved accusation, a sickness that left one lame forever. At that moment, God challenged one to confront Him and to answer His question: "Why dost thou cling fast to an existence so short and so filled with suffering? What is the meaning of thy struggle?"

The man who did not know how to answer this question would resign himself, while another, one who sought a meaning to existence, feeling that God had been unjust, would challenge his own destiny. It was at this moment that fire of a different type descended from the heavens - not the fire that kills but the kind that tears down ancient walls and imparts to each human being his true possibilities.

Cowards never allow their hearts to blaze with this fire; all they desire is for the changed situation to quickly return to what it was before, so they can go on living their lives and thinking in their customary way. The brave, however, set afire that which was old and, even at the cost of great internal suffering, abandon everything. Including God, and continue onward.

"The brave are always stubborn."

From heaven, God smiles contentedly, for it was this that He desired, that each person take into his hands the responsibility for his own life. For, in the final analysis, He had given His children the greatest of all gifts: the capacity to choose and determine their acts.

Only those men and women with the sacred flame in their hearts had the courage to confront Him. And they alone know the path back to His love, for they understood that tragedy was not punishment but challenge.


Why do people suffer if God is everything and power?
Because of his love. His love for us, grant us our freedom. The freedom to choose. He does not plot and script our lives like a drama, but given us the freedom to choose the path ourselves.

And because of this freedom, sometimes we make wrong choices. Other people may suffer because of our choices. Or we ourselves suffered. But because God Himself is love, we, who are make as an image of Him, is the product of His love.

Then surely, we, are love.

But do we love only those we are the same 'design' as us?

Check out EXPO mrt station on SAT. This lady in wheelchair singing... trying to sell tissues.... so how MANY CHIRSTIAN did bother to stop and brought from her?

So where did the teaching: "IF U LEND TO THE POOR, U LEND TO ME, YOUR GOD AND I WILL RETURN TO U IN MULTIPLE FOLD"


What does that show? Dont tell me that there's report that these pple can earn up to a few K and go on holidays by selling tissues, and they are cheating pple.
HELLO! Wake up! If u have the right to go for holiday, who ARE U to deny other pple right to go for holiday too? Just cos they earn by selling tissues they shouldn’t be rich and get to enjoy life????


Being a Christian means nothing. Only those that I have seen following in God's way are the ones that I truly respect. Action speaks louder than Words.