AS WITHOUT SO WITHIN

When the external search for an answer is in vain, I turned inwards.
It is said the Mind ask the question; the Heart has the answer.


What happen if I told you that God does not has a direct hold on you?
"The Lord will see and the Lord will provide." is not what you thought it is?

Because God is a God of love...and we are each made as an image of Him, therefore we are His love.
Because of God's love, we are not just puppet creatures he created for fun and plan and stage every event of our live and watch us drifting through life like some soap opera.
Because of His love, we are given the freedom. The freedom to choose, the freedom to decide and even the freedom to reject Him.

This freedom means that we make decision and choose our own path. When we make the wrong choices, either we ourselves suffered OR others suffered because of us.



IF no death or major harm happened, I would say there is no right or wrong choice. Only different lessons to be learn. The roads may be different, but it will lead to the same destination if you press on. The key is: keep moving forward.

Life no longer is just discovery but creation. We CANNOT create the situation we are in, but we CAN create HOW WE react to the situation. We no longer just walk a single path or applied a single solution, but we are able to CREATE our own path and a NEW solution.

But all is not lost. Hope is still around IF you know where to look. It doesn’t have to be a big thing. Sometime and most of the time. it’s always the small things that count.


In search for my answer, I finally turn inwards to seek for them. I found 2.

1. Because of God's love, the freedom He grants us, He no longer can intervene any mishap. The pain that we felt is cast back onto Him 10x, 20x or even a 100x. Such is the love that parents willing to bear for their children; husband willing to bear for his wife; and God willing to bear for us.

2. Because people just die. Life has a beginning and an ending. People just simply die.



I created a forest, a rain forest. And I got lost inside. I walk on and on while searching for an answer; searching for a way out. In the end, I was never lost. And now the way out is clearly in front but I’d grow complacence in this comfort forest of mine and I fear to walk out of it.

I lay down watching the night sky waiting for the right time to come...