HEROES - The Legend Continues

Very suprising, my last post for the 2007 end back on the TeeBee series .
Alot of things went thru my head last night and I could end up writing a million other things. But in the end here I'm, at the last hour of the year 07 writing about a teebee series! Yea *Grinz* v^^v

Hiro Nakamura. We have seen from the start, a day to day office-man. From the ever-cute innocent man to a confidence, strong hero who we all could rely on. He went through alot. Yea, we all know. And it isnt easy for him. So much pain and failure. And at point, he wished to give up. We always do dont we? =)

Obstacles, barrier, problems, issues, challenges are basically the same one thing. Many names are given to it. All from different prespective. What is important is to take note that it is essential. What we went thru make today us.

Like in the last few Esp. Hiro passed his sword to Ando. Puzzled by his action, Ando asked:"but you need the sword, it will help you concentrate your power"
Hiro:It is not the sword but the man. And the man is ready now...

like Hiro, at certain points in our life, we depend on certain stuff for our 'power'. But in the end, we will realised that all these are what condition or strengthen us to be the man we are. =)



Peter Petrelli.Alrite, apart from his goodlooking-ness. He was the other character who I found very close to us. From the start, a younger bro, who always look for his bro support or help. Someone who pure in his heart with kindness sparkling out of his eyes. Yet, he was not without struggles. He tried to understand himself, to find meaning in life. To find out what's he mean to do. To be.

Like Peter, most of us are on our quest to search for our destiny. Our calling. Some found it and give it up. Others simpling ignored it. So few of us actually walked the path that we are called for. So few of us have the courage to walk on. Life is never easy. Neither is it fair. We have seen for ourselves that good people dies and bad one enjoying life out there. We can all give up and said there's nth I can do. Or we can try. yes we try to give our little little effort. To try to change the world.

Like Peter, giving without asking for return is never easy. And of cos at times, it hurt and it hurt badly till it bleeds. Giving has another name. Sacrifying. Giving without holding back....even when its hurt to give...



' That which we are, we are all the while teaching, not voluntarily, but involuntarily.' - Ralph Waldo Emerson

That's why I always said if its not of goodness, do not speak it.
It doesnt mean you have to hide all your feelings. Cannot do this cannot that. BUT if its words that going to hurt someone, why would you want to say it or wrote it?
Unless of cos you wanted to hurt back. If not, its always better to learn to let go.

Please dont tell me forgive but not forget. Its bull shit. If you cant forget about how the other wronged you or hurted you, then where did the forgiveness come from?
If you said you forgived him and still keep on going about it...have you really forgive?

Forgive and forget =) it the way things should be.
let the year of 07 ended with a big heart. A heart that's overflowing with love, so that we could all love everyone.

Jia you bah pple! love you all

GOODBYE

In life, we often say goodbye to each others.
When we left our house;
When we left our school;
When we left our office;
When friends going aparts;
When love one dies;

Will we meet them again? Or will this be the last time that we will be seeing them?
Nobody knows.

A newly founded team-mate; A trusted battle partner; A friend who always say "Im strong". Now that she has found a new path to continue her walk of life. All the best wishes for her. =)

May the road rise up to meet you, may the wind be ever at your back. May the sun shine warm upon your face and the rain fall softly on your fields. And until we meet again, may God hold you in the hollow of his hand.

HEROES - Hiro Nakamura

In the last 2 esp. of session 1, Hiro was trained by his dad in sword-fighting.

Hiro: "I understand father. To save what is important...
I must be strong enough...
to cut out my own heart."

It’s a simple storyline yet it show great sacrificing spirit.
The power of giving is as such, to love to give.
You can give without loving but you can never love without giving.
How much you willing to put the other first before yourself, means how much that person means to you.

It’s not easy. And never was easy to give especially when it’s hurt.
Just like what my hairstylist always said: living is never about self, we always live for others.

Horoscope~ heeeeeeeeeeez

Lets101 Quizzes - Quizzes for Fun

小乌龟

作词:游家豪 作曲:廖世杰
编曲:小安 演唱:张栋梁

ia ia ia ia ia
ia ia ia ia ia
这首歌要给一个人
歌声代替语言
深情只增不减
那一刻吻她的脸
地转天旋

爱的感觉
比樱桃更甜
双眼放送闪电
能超越极限
让人忘了季节
爱成了经典
为他付出所有爱怨

要你永远是我的小乌龟
我爱你
每一天

If Only you could see me

星星挂在天边就像梦想来不及实现
把过去想了一遍想起眷恋你的昨天
等待是久了一些时间沉默地过了几年
相爱是一种语言只是你不说我如何听见
我在身边怎么你看不见
别让我痴心地守候看不到终点
我在身边希望最后你能够发现
我能给你的温柔经得起考验
星星消失在天边就像诺言来不及实现
把未来想了一遍仍然是没有把握的明天
挣扎是久了一些伤痛化成了繁星点点
爱你是一种考验就让我再赌一个明天
我在身边怎么你看不见
别让我痴心地守候看不到终点
我在身边希望最后你能够发现
我能给你的温柔经得起考验
哦...
我在身边怎么你看不见
别让我痴心地守候看不到终点
我在身边希望最后你能够发现
我能给你的温柔经得起考验
我在身边怎么你看不见
别让我痴心地守候看不到终点
我在身边希望最后你能够发现
我能给你的温柔经得起考验
最后你终于发现我在你身边
最后你终于发现我在你身边

Standard Chartered 10KM Marathon Run

Yeaaaaa completed it. okok partially. What do you expect from someone who spent months sitting in front of a com all day long, and suddenly woohooo 10km????

yea. so i ended up running 4km and walked the remaining 6km. Now still having sore legs =/ ahhhh


Anyway, currently the whole week on MCSA course. woohooo its nice to be back in classroom =x no need to report to boss. no need run around. no more user problem =.=


Let's hope the exam wont be too hard >.<

MSN

Logged in to MSN this very night... and a familiar nick POP up on top. Thoughts its not her.. but the name still brought back emotions that overwhelm me...Kitty...

It seems like only yesterday. Time never dim anything but forge stronger bonds.
One in heaven; another on earth. You are missed Mei! =) I wonder how's life up there.

- Life still goes on -

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bleah

UPDATE

As audiences requested *take a big bow*, updating on my life.

well, first of all - Work
My IT manager have take a huge jump to become the HR manager. Yes. You didnt see wrongly. Its H.R. manager. So im left to pick up all the works, including daily office support + servers + network + some leftover.
There's good and bad points.
1) I need to pick everything up first. which im glad still managable with help of my senior who have moved on to the oracle database.
2) Now that I report directly to the Department Head - Ass. Director aka master (noted: we are all Systems engineer aka slave. both start with s if you notice *ginz"). So hopefully this end year bonus i getting a fat one =x *pray hard*
3) Hope the CEO quickly approved my course. Then I will be on a week long course in Dec - which means yea. on time end work. no need go office. relaxing. er if i did pass the exam of cos =x The course - MCSE total up of 7 modules, each 5 days only one module was 2 days. So that means 7 exam =x gooosh =x And i though im free from exam =x

Next - Family
Good so far. Lately talking about family trip and family car @.@ lets hope the bonus will help me with it =x

And tada - love life
la la la ~ some up and some down. But i guess we are still growing into each other.
=) its sweet afterall

and er what?
friends?
Havent really catch up will alot of pple. except for some who starts selling me insurances =x haha. of cos i dont mind. =) Let catch up more when i start going on my leaves soon! Dec! wheeeeeee

and then? then?
no more?

tada ~ see u folks around~ dont miss me too much~

MODELLING

Quote - ' That which we are, we are all the while teaching, not voluntarily, but involuntarily.' - Ralph Waldo Emerson


You're going to love this;



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What we say and what we do must agree.

Our people will do what we do more than what we say.

What walks in fathers runs in children.

The way we handle our people is the way they will handle others.

What we do to our people is what they will do to others.

Our actions will always be more powerful than our words.

People accuse or excuse themselves on the actions of their leaders.

Our lives are the most powerful message we will ever preach.

People ask themselves, 'What would (that person) do in this situation?'

And thus they get counsel from knowing the life of their leader.




Stepping out with you,
PHIL PRINGLE


From The Leadership Files

Pointers

This is what i learnt from my company retreat@Phuket

A good leader required these 3 points:
1. to serve to lead
2. S.M.A.R.T
3. able to work well with others

A good leader must be able to shoulder responsiblities. To take on jobs/tasks that no one else wanted to do aka *Get your hands dirty*

A good leader must be able to lead. To lead does not mean staying in the lime light, but to choose your apprentice who's even better than you. You will need him/her to rise up to take on your role or even higher when the calling come.

A good leader must be able to work well with others. We are only one by ourselves; and we can only do this much. But when we join hands, the tasks that can be done begin to multiple by 10, 20, even 30 folds.

Above all, a lead need to be able to have D.R.I.V.E to have passion for the work and to be able to inspire others.

Proverbs 27:17

As iron sharpens iron,
so one man sharpens another.



The naive me use to think that life has everything planned out. Each of us are like a piece of jigsaw puzzle, finding what is planned for us, finding our perfect job, our perfect soulmate, our perfect house, our perfect car etc. And with that, we can 'fit' in correctly as all the pieces fall into place.

But no, life didnt work this way. We are have our 'sharp edges'. And when we tried to fit into our perfect job, our perfect soulmate the sharp edges pierce thru. We wounded ourselves; we hurted others.

As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another. Fiction, conflicts, forced or difference to surface. That is when, we need to work together to rub off the sharp edges. And as time passes, the sticking out edges become smooth and round.

WORDS POWER

Words carry far much greater power that most of us are not aware of.

Words of encouragement bring strength.
Words of hope bring faith.
Words of love bring bond.

Words that hurts kill.
They kill friendship, family bonds, love ones and all others random people.

Speak only of love, faith and hope.
That is what we should all do. It didnt proof anything or savage any issues with words that complains, grumbles, or stabs others. What do we achieve by doing so?
Revenge? sweet sweet revenge? or just letting out our anger? our fustration?
And after that? we lost our friends. we lost our hope. we lost our direction.


I'm sure there are better way to let go of the tension inside. Running, swimming, and physical activites that let you sweat it all out helps. =)

Let it be known that we all can help by saying a kind word

PFP SLIM

yea! its super light. <3 my PF portable v^^v

KEYS

keys are impt in our life.
We all have our valuable house keys which unlock the door to our comfortable home.
Our '21 years old key' which mark as a milestone in our years of live.

But some keys are better not to have. These keys which i lately come in procession of - office keys.
Which mean
1) you are the first to reach the office.
2) you are the last to leave the office.
3) you found yourself in the office on a nice sat and sun.


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Evan Almighty

A great show to catch. =)

Had a good time relaxing and laughing during the show.
What makes it catching is that parts of the story reflect our life.

More than often, we got caught up in work, school etc.
And we tried to compensate our families, children and love ones with materials like bigger house, car, money.....
and then we forgot that what they actually ask for is just alittle of our time.

And when Evan got stuck right in the big mess building an ark and proclaimed that a flood is coming, Evan's wife packed the kids to return to her mum's house... leaving Evan alone on his own. Half way off, God had a nice little chit chat with her...

"You pray for family closeness, better bonding..., but do you expect God to just give you the warm hearted wizzy feeling straight? No. its not the way God work... what God give you, is the opportunity for your family to bond closer.."

"Everyone told Noah Ark story as God's anger...but it isnt the way it should be... its a story of love.....

of family sticking together through all the difficulties...
of animals coming in pair, standing shoulder by shoulder, side by side..........."



like what the Movie reflected, we all undergoes difficult situation at times...but what is important is to always stick together...shoulder by shoulder...side by side...

We share a bond, you and I

Shelter
Written by Corrinne May Ying Foo
Copyright 2006, Corrmay Gourmet Music (ASCAP)


What's wrong, what's getting you down?
Is it something I might have said?
You're walking around
With your head to the ground
And your eyes are watery red
I know you've been through tough times
Kicked around, thrown to the ground
But you've always been the strong one
So don't tell me that nobody gets you'
Cause I'm standing in your corner
Knocking at your door
You don't have to be alone
Just call my name
Let me be an answer
'Cause it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain
Help me understand
Let me be your shelter, my friend

We share a bond, you and I, we belong
We're like coffee and morning train
You strip my defenses
I catch your pretenses
The same blood runs through our veins
I swore I'd be your lifeline
Made a vow that I'd surround you
With love at every milestone
I'll listen when nobody gets you
I'm still standing in your corner
Waiting by your door
You don't have to be alone

Just call my name
Let me be an answer
'Cause it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain
Help me understand
Let me be your shelter, my friend

It was not too long ago
You sought to understand
You helped me mend
Remember when
So promise me you'll call my name
Let me be an answer
'Cause it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain
Help me understand
Let me be your shelter, my friend

HEART

A simple conversation, a simple chat, yet the words cut in deep.

Were talking about dried flowers that got thrown away accidently by parents.
The most important thing is that it touches your heart, then it have serve it purpose...


Tulips wlit fast, but at least they were beautiful for the moment.
We all will live with the beautiful moments in our heart.


伴着盛开的花蝴蝶才能飞舞
带着希望梦想才能飞往高处
迎着温暖的风我们不再无助
因为你的祝福我的爱不辛苦
呼吸感动我不再退步
让音乐赶走我的孤独
我的勇气因为你的保护
不曾停下追逐真爱的脚步
种下爱种下梦种下我们的心愿
让阳光照亮在我们心灵最深处
那些事那些歌伴着我们的誓约
不能哭我们要挑战未知旅途
不怕输我们有笑声交织着泪水
最勇敢的幸福

BOO! go away flu ~

hate flu x.x

UNSPEAKABLE GRIEF

This was the chapter name that i'd just read from "Facing Your Giants" by Max Lucado

I had a dream last night. Thought its only a dream, its real enough to left me exhausted for the rest of the day. The pain was real. So was the tears.

I buried her with my own hand. She look peaceful.
It hurts still. alot alot alot and the tears just keep pouring.

I woke up crying. The pain still lingers. It seems like the new just hitted me yesterday only. Her laughters, joys, temper, sweetness still filled the air around.




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We like David , have two choices:
flee or face the giant.

The grave stirs such unspeakable hurt and unanswerable questions, we're tempted to turn and walk. Change the subject, avoid the issue. Work hard. Drink harder. Stay busy. Stay distant.

Yet we pay a high price when we do. Bereavement comes from the word reave. Look up reave in the dictionary, and you'll read "to take away by force, plunder, rob." Death robs you. The grave plunders moments and memories not yet shared: birthdays, vactions, lazy walks, talks over tea. You are bereaved because you've been robbed.

Normal is no more and never will be again. After the wife of C.S. Lewis died of cancer, he wrote, "Her absence is like the sky, spread over everything."

Just when you think the beast of grief is gone, you hear a song she loved or smell the cologne he wore or pass a restaurant where the two of you used to eat. The giant keeps showing up.
And the giant of grief keeps stirring up. Stirring up...

Anxiety. "Am i next?

Guilt. "Why did I tell him..." "Why didnt i say to her..."

Wistfulness. You see intact couples and long for your mate. You see parents with kids and yearn for your child.

The giant stirs up insomnia, loss of appetite, forgetfulness, thoughts of suicid. Grief is not a mental illness, but it sure feels like one sometimes.


Tears are the material out of which heaven weaves its brightest rainbow - F.B. Meyer


Rain are not just water that falls from the sky, they are the tears from heaven...

The leadership files

RESULTS

Quote - ' ...begin with the end in mind.' - Stephen Covey

You're going to love this;

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Be result oriented.

Know what it is you want.

See it.

Can you believe you're going to achieve it?

How are you going to get there?

Work from the end, not the front.

See the end. How does it look?

Now see where you are.

Now see the road between you and the result.

This is the road you have to take to get there.

Write that down. It's called strategy.

It's your road map to a great result.

Stick to the plan.




Stepping out with you,
Phil Pringle


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Time really flies and its almost 9 months since im away.
These things have been with me from the start till now =)
A blessing to have them.

1. leadership files signed up by my dear friend Hardy aka the man with the God's word.
2. NIV Bible a gift from my dear friend Wesley who have the gift of empathy.
3. Life application study bible from all my dear BBG friends. (you know who you all are, its written on the first page and to all those that didnt wrote their name in).




Thanks you all. =)

A year of age

This year definitely a year of change.
The current of life is so strong that to keep afloat is draining me of all my energy.

A year of age = a year of wisdom?
Things arent as simple as i thought. Maybe im naive. Things are just the way they are. I dont like to complicate them. But nevertheless, im blind to the surroundings.
My blindspot. Got to learn to be extra watchful.
A year of age is a year of grey hair.

A year of age = a year of strength and courage?
As one grow older, we grow timid. We fear more; we worried more.
"Be strong, and of good courage.." I will bear that in mind.
A year of age is a year of stress.


Character. We must adjust to an ever changing road ... while holding onto unchanging principles.

UPDATES!

well ya ya. updates =x

1. arhhhhhhh Banks are irritating. They mailed me a new clean form to fill in again. Reason? cos my signature is different. HELLO ! How different can it get zzzz. If you dont want me to pay back my school loan, i'll gladly keep my money.

2. work. Seems that i got caught up with the adult work. No sun set no going home.
*yawn*

3. Master BH aka my director: "U will only learn if things goes wrong" zzz. He will stand behind you then watch you perform your 'miracle'. "Wah, u type so slow" his voice come from behind. How to type fast with you watching? zzzz But kudos to him. There's truth to his statement.

4. JW is my name. zzzz. online in the cyber world using pen name rain BUT that does not make me MR Rain. It just sound weird =x

5. HP Customer services. eeeeeeeeeeeek. arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrh. UUUUUUUUrrrgggghhh.
Are they located in India or sth???? They route you over there then u ask "I need an onsite service" and they tell you "No, sir u cant have it."

"What??? why?"
"Sir, we are trying to help you. U have to go thru the basic steps"

HELLO! IM an ENGINEER! NOT 10 yrs old kid playing with computer! Arrhhh...they make my blood boil.

6. Had a lovely time with Mrs Rain =p wheeeee
thanks to Boss, Khai and FEF. The tulips are lovely.



ok. i forgot what else i wanted to blog. =x

张震岳-小宇 ( My version =x )

总有些惊奇的际遇
比方说当我遇见你
你那双温柔莹剔透的眼睛
出现在我梦里

我的爱就像一片云
在你的天空无处停
多渴望化成阵阵的小雨
滋润你心中的土地

不管未来会怎麽样
至少我们现在很开心
不管结局会怎麽样
至少想念的人是你
我不会把它当作游戏
因为我真心对你

总有些话是不能提
怕你会掉入选择题
我把情感自私的那一面
隐藏在黑夜里

我的爱就像一片舟
在你的心湖无处停
寻寻觅觅一个美丽的港湾
希望不再流浪漂荡

我不管未来会怎麽样
我不管结局会怎麽样
但我每天都想见到你
我想真的跟你在一起
如果你还是没法相信
真的没关系 我会安静的守候

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somehow the song rings inside me...
~ rain falling in my heart~

LOVE ME

somehow this song brought back memories and emotion.
Seems like its raining again...

LYRICS

This lyrics was a direct translation from a jap anime song. Since its direct translation, so the english dont really goes quite well, but still, pretty cool lyrics =)

One, surpassing time;
Unleashed dreams whose ends cannot be seen.

Love, within my pocket;
The rolled up map, let's open it up now!

This heartbeat wich has been put on the right track,
I want it to reach you!

Supporting each other with love that has no gap;

Find break through!
Face tomorrow!

Will race through the darkness and behold the dawn;
Im just dreamer, even when wondering about.

Ive already found what I must protect,
seeking a new light... Never, gonna give up!

SELF-LESSNESS

A selfless person is people centred.
They care alot abt other people. Really alot alot.

But they took little notice of themselves.
And often they give too much of themselves to others and got hurted.

You are one.
I dont mean to hurt you.


Time teaches us nothing. Only through incidents we went through, then only we will learn and grow together.

Each of us have a role in every story. A part to play. A heart to give and
people to love.

私奔到月球

即使你是個心狠又手辣的小偷
我的心 我的呼吸和名字都偷走

綺：你才是 綁架我的兇手
機車後座的我 吹著風 逃離了平庸

信：這星球天天有五十億人在錯過
多幸運有你一起看星星在爭寵

綺：這一刻不再問為什麼 不再去猜測
(合唱) 人和人 心和心 有什麼不同

合唱：
一二三 牽著手 四五六 抬起頭
七八九 我們私奔到月球
讓雙腳去騰空 讓我們去感受
那無憂的真空 那夜色純真的感動

信：當你說太聰明 往往還是會寂寞
我笑著傾聽孤單終結後的寂寞

綺：看月亮像夜空的瞳孔 靜靜凝視你我
和我們擾嚷的星球

信：靠近你 怎麼突然兩個人都詞窮
讓心跳像是野火燎原般的洶湧

綺：這一刻讓命運也沉默 讓腳尖劃過
(合唱)天和天 地和地 緣份的宇宙




omg. the song so cute =D

我要和你私奔到月球 =x

2 CORINTHIANS 6:14-18

Since the passage was brought up, lets' remain netural and take a look at the explaination given by LIFE Application Study Bible - NIV

Paul urges believers not to form binding relationships with nonbelievers, because this might weaken their Christian commitment, integrity, or standards. It would be a mismatch.
Earlier, Paul had explained that this did not mean isolating oneself from nonbelievers (see 1 Corinthians 5:9, 10). Paul even tells Christians to stay with their nonbelieving spouses (1 Corinthians 7:12, 13). Paul wants believers to be active in their witness for Christ to nonbelievers, but they should not lock themselves into personal or business realtionships that could cause them to compromise the faith.


Regarding Mich's tagged message, the issue is the couple are already committed to a relationship. The guy give up BECAUSE of his father dislike. NOT because there's any weakening/threatening of his faith.
The dad dislike her just cos she a nonbeliever! DONT tell me that this is correct.

Sighness

Religion or Relationship

A young couple being together for 2 years ++. The guy came from a Christian family, thus a 2nd or even a 3rd gen Christian. And the gal, non-christian. Things didnt work out for them well. The guy's dad doesnt like the gal as she refused to convert just to please his dad. And finally, the guy decided to break up with her.

Sadly, the guy feel that religion is more impt that his relationship. Between this 2 R, he is not able to find the balance.

Isnt Christianity about your RELATIONSHIP with God?
Or have Christianity become an exclusive group.
Christian can only be with Christian

BULL SHIT. Are you going to tell me that God only love Christian?
Arent all human, animals, plants his beloved creation?


Matthew 5:45
He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. 46 If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? 47And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? 48 Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.


How i wish the guy's dad will be able to love the gal as he love his son.
Religion should not never be emphasised.
But God's love should be make known to all.

Circumstances

Circumstances do not make the man, they merely reveal him to himself

We cannot control the circumstances around us.
What happen will happen. There is no but.

BUT, (ok we do have one). We could control the way we react to them.





Sighness

Sorry

that all i can said.
Friends are to confront each other when in doubts.

Graduation (Friends Forever)

VITAMIN C LYRICS

"Graduation (Friends Forever)"

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We would get so excited and we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

[1] - As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

[Repeat 1]

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

[Repeat 1 (3x)]


And there I was. I never knew, letting go can be so painful.
It has been a really great experience working with you. you have taught me much.
and much more through what you did. Stay blessed girl. Take the wings and fly.

I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels
We will still be friends forever. forever.



erhm hmmmm why does the lyrics have to stress 25 ????
zzzzzz

Drifting...... NOT

Most of us, or rather some of us at some state of life will feel that we are just drifting through life.

Or we have drifted for the pass donkey years. And we wish that maybe we could have make better use of it.


But something dawn apon me at this hour. No. it is not driting. it is call ABSORBING.

we like infant need to watch and learn. try and grow. We are absorbing life. Nothing is build with a snap of the fingers. everything. everything are build laying bricks by bricks; layer by layer; foundation by foundation.

All that happened in the past make the current us now.
All that happened no matter sad or happy, they build us up.

Believe that there is always something to learn in every story.
Believe that there is reasons for every suffering.


The past are rocks that path our way to now.

Grow strong my friends

Standing....Falling.....Standing.....Falling

Maybe I have been down for too long. All the baggages are weighing me down... too long that i cant remember how to stand..

or maybe too long that i find myself comfortably lying down.


Its time to get up again...

For a just man falleth seven times, and riseth up again
just gota to keep on trying

QUIZZZZZZZZZZ

You Are 2: The Helper

You always put on a happy face and try to help those around you.You're incredibly empathetic and care about everyone you know. Able to see the good in others, you're thoughtful, warm, and sincere.You connect with people who are charming and charismatic. At Your Best: You are deeply giving, altruistic, and humble. You devote your life to others while caring for yourself too. At Your Worst: You are manipulative and enjoy making other people guilty. Your Fixation: Rejection Your Primary Fear: Being unworthy of love Your Primary Desire: To be loved unconditionally Other Number 2's: Mother Teresa, John Travolta, Princess Diana, Dr. Phil, and Mr. Rogers.

What Number Are You?

The Alchemist

This book has been translated into fifty-siz languages, has sold more than twenty million copies, and people are beginning to ask: What's the secret behind such a huge success?

The only honest response is: I don't know. All i know is that, like Santiago the shepherd boy, we all need to be aware of our personal calling. What is a personal calling? It is God's blessing, it is the path that God chose for you here on Earth. Whenever we do something that fills us with enthusiasm, we are following our legend. However, we don't all have the courage to confront our own dream.

why?

There are four obstacles.

First: we are told from childhood onward that everything we want to do is impossible.
We grow up with this idea, and as the years accumulate, so too do the layers of prejudice, fear, and guilt. There comes a time when our personal calling is so deeply buried in our soul as to be invisible. But it's still there.

If we have the courage to disinter dream, we are then faced by the second obstacle: love.
We know what we want to do, but are afraid of hurting those around us by adandoning everything in order to pursue our dream. We do not realize that love is just a further impetus, not something that will prevent us going forward. We do not realize that those who genuinely wish us well want us to be happy and are prepared to accompany us on that journey.

Once we have accepted that love is a stimulus, we come up against the third obstacle: fear of the defeats we will meet on the path. We who fight for our dream suffer far more when it doesn't work out, because we cannot fall back on the old excuse: "Oh, well, I didn't really want it anyway." We do want it and know that we have staked everything on it and that the path of the personal calling is no easier than any other path, except that our whole heart is in this journey. Then, we warriors of light must be prepared to have patience in difficult times and to know that the Universe is conspiring in our facor, even though we may not understand how.

I ask myseld: are defeats necessary?

Well, necessary or not, they happen. When we first begin fighting for our dream, we have no experience and make many mistakes. The sercret of life, though, is to fall seven times and to get up eight times.

So, why is it so important to live our personal calling if we are only going to suffer more than other people?

Because, once we have overcome the defeats - and we always do - we are filled by a greater sense of euphoria and confidence. In the silence of our hearts, we know that we are proving ourselves worthy of the miracle of life. Each day, each hour, is part of the good fight. We start to live with enthusiam and plreasure. Intense, unexpected suffering that is apparaently beraable; the latter goes on for years and, without our noticing, eats away at our soul, until, one day, we are no longer able to free ourselves from the bitterness and it stays with us for the rest of our lives.

Having disinterred our dream, having used the power of love to nurture it and spent many years living with the scars, we suddenly notice that we always wanted is there, waiting for us, perhaps the very next day. Then comes the fourth obsacle: the fear of realizing the dream for which we fought all our lives.

Oscar Wilde said: "Each man kills the thing he loves."
And its true. THe mere possibility of getting what we want fills the soul of the ordinary person with guilt. We look around at all thsoe who have failed to get what we want either. We forget about all the obstacles we overcame, all the suffering we endured, all the things we had to give up inorder to get thi wsfar. I have known a lot of people who, when their personal calling was within their grasp, went on to commit a series of stupid mistakes and never reached their goal - when it was only a step away.

This is the most dangerous of the obstacles because it has a kind of saintly aura about it: renouncing joy and conquest. But if you believe yourself worthy of the thing you fought so hard to get, then you become an instrument of God, you help the Soul of the World, and you understand why you are here.

Paulo Coelho

Little Wonders

dated back 4/20/07. One month plus past by and when khai suddenly mention the song again.
This time, managed to find it. =) thanks bro!


This song was played when Lewis when back to the Science Fair and tries his invention again, this time on one of the judges, Dr. Krunklehorn and it works. He become the limelight of the whole Science Fair. And at the moment, everything fall in place. It was more than a dream coming true.

And im waiting for mine...

LEARNING

we have been looking too hard to find the right fit people. and we got ourselves mud stuck.

ok its a wrong focus! we get back right to the starting point. We are not building a PERFECT place for PERFECT pple. Ok im perfectionist but still. =x

The main aim is learning! Even if they failed us. Even if they failed the task. They have learned something valuable. And that's it!

Give everyone a chance!
Life is always about growing changing and learning.

stay strong pple!

HALF EMPTY

Saturday, June 2nd, 2007 PST

Virgo (Aug 23 - Sep 22)
You've had less complicated days, but at least you can get a lot accomplished if you take things one step at a time. It really doesn't matter what you produce; you'll still see what you didn't complete. Today your glass may appear half empty rather than half full. But don't get too discouraged, for the tides will turn if you can maintain a positive attitude.

18 29

taken from http://contents.kbs.co.kr/program/program_dview.php?contentsUid=62

This drama takes the audience back to the 1990s. The main character of the drama, Yoo Hye-chan, 29, reverts mentally to an 18-year-old girl after having a car accident. As she recovers her memory and the relationship with her husband, Kang Sang-yeong, she goes through many hilarious and heart-moving moments.
Hye-chan, who was a beauty queen in high school, marries her former classmate Kang Bong-man. In 2005, she turns 29. But after a fierce fight with her husband, she heads to court to file for divorce, unable to control her rage anymore. On her way to court, her car clashes with a truck, and as a result she develops amnesia. She only remembers herself as a senior high schooler, when she was sassy and outgoing, and popular with her peers. As her memory reverts to her adolescent years, she suddenly becomes crazy about the dance group "Seo Tae Ji and Kids," which was popular with teenagers back in the ‘90s. While looking strong on the surface, deep inside she is soft-hearted and feeble. She likes Jane Campion's movie "Piano" a lot. Although Kang Bong-man, nicknamed "Ice Prince," is the ideal of every girl in Hye-chan's school, she regards him as shallow. The guy she really likes is her senior, Jeong Shi-woo.
But in reality, Hye-chan's husband is Kang Bong-man, whom she despised so much in high school. He changes his name to Kang Sang-yeong when he becomes an actor. In the latter part of the drama, Hye-chan recovers her memory and pursues her dream of becoming a film director. When Hye-chan loses her memory, Sang-yeong becomes preoccupied with mending their shattered relationship. He collects all the messages they had exchanged in the past to help her remember who he is. The replays of Hye-chan's memories, which are presented in diverse ways, add to the drama's tantalizing plot.

For those like me, who like shows with a happy ending... this's one for you. =)


Growing up sometimes can be painful. Not all of us grow up the 'norm' way; some of us are 'forced' to grow up suddenly. When such cases happened, often, we lost our vision and the strength to dream.

Hye-chan went back to the 18 yrs old her...from there she realised how much she has missed her old self.... and slowly she draw from that 18 yrs old her... the strength once again to dream.
We too, sometimes has to draw strength from the child us... to believe strongly once again that nothing is impossible.

Rabindranath Tagore

Rabindranath Tagore (1861-1941) was a Bengali poet, philosopher, artist, playwright, composer and novelist. India's first Nobel laureate, Tagore won the 1913 Nobel Prize for Literature. He composed the text of both India's and Bangladesh's respective national anthems. Tagore travelled widely and was friends with many notable 20th century figures such as William Butler Yeats, H.G. Wells, Ezra Pound, and Albert Einstein. While he supported Indian Independence, he often had tactical disagreements with Gandhi (at one point talking him out of a fast to the death). His body of literature is deeply sympathetic for the poor and upholds universal humanistic values. His poetry drew from traditional Vaisnava folk lyrics and was often deeply mystical.

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CHAPTER 4: THE PROBLEM OF SELF


For love is an end unto itself. Everything else raises the question "Why?" in our mind, and we require a reason for it. But when we say, "I love," then there is no room for the "why"; it is the final answer in itself.

As by the limits of law nature is separated from God, so it is the limits of its egoism which separates the self from him. He has willingly set limits to his will, and has given us mastery over the little world of our own. It is like a father's settling upon his son some allowance within the limit of which he is free to do what he likes. Though it remains a portion of the father's own property, yet he frees it from the operation of his own will. The reason of it is that the will, which is love's will and therefore free, can have its joy only in a union with another free will. The tyrant who must have slaves looks upon them as instruments of his purpose. It is the consciousness of his own necessity which makes him crush the will out of them, to make his self-interest absolutely secure. This self-interest cannot brook the least freedom in others, because it is not itself free. The tyrant is really dependent on his slaves, and therefore he tries to make them completely useful by making them subservient to his own will. But a lover must have two wills for the realisation of his love, because the consummation of love is in harmony, the harmony between freedom and freedom. So God's love from which our self has taken form has made it separate from God; and it is God's love which again establishes a reconciliation and unites God with our self through the separation.

It is the end of our self to seek that union. It must bend its head low in love and meekness and take its stand where great and small all meet. It has to gain by its loss and rise by its surrender. His games would be a horror to the child if he could not come back to his mother, and our pride of personality will be a curse to us if we cannot give it up in love. We must know that it is only the revelation of the Infinite which is endlessly new and eternally beautiful in us, and which gives the only meaning to our self.


http://www.sacred-texts.com/hin/tagore/sadh/sadh06.htm

Everything

Michael Buble – Everything lyrics

You're a falling star, You're the get away car.
You're the line in the sand when I go too far.
You're the swimming pool, on an August day.
And You're the perfect thing to say.

And you play your coy, but it's kinda cute.
Ah, When you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
Baby don't pretend, that you don't know it's true.
Cause you can see it when I look at you.

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

You're a carousel, you're a wishing well,
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
You're a mystery, you're from outer space,
You're every minute of my everyday.

And I can't believe, that I'm your man,
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.
Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,
And you know that's what our love can do.

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
You're every song, and I sing along.
Cause you're my everything.
yeah, yeah

So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

QUIZ!

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LAST EXAM

Had my last exam - law on Fri. The paper was quite challenging but it did go well for me. Guess i did prepared for it well =p.

As i sit at the examination hall and breath in the exam air for the last time (most likely) of my education life.... the emotion is overwhelming. Suddenly did feel old =x (OK! i heard U! loud and clear... zzzz) and yap.... life is definitely entering another new path for me.

I need a Career! YooohoooooO! Where ar' you, my career?

LION DANCE ALUMNI TEAM

OKi! im old =x That sat when back for college day to help out at the performance. =.=! didnt know im the 'shi wei' (the back person in the lion)... and half way thru im already drained of all energy. shack! super shack! The behind part, i 'eat snake' alot nv follow thru the proper movements =x AND im aching all over for the past 2 days.

sigh. I really need some serious workout.

我要陪你...我也愿意...

我要陪你擦拭每个昨天,相片,日记,书签
有暖意慢慢浮现,我要用默默的体贴
让你睁开双眼,看见昨夜梦想都实现

我也愿意帮你打扫房间,把牌技好好演练
陪你妈妈打八圈,为你写下盈泪诗篇
感觉就像触电,才会对我想念,非常想念

我要陪你擦拭每个昨天,相片,日记,书签
有暖意慢慢浮现,我要用默默的体贴
让你睁开双眼,看见昨夜梦想都实现

我也愿意帮你打扫房间,帮你的爸爸戒烟
帮你兄弟姐妹买早点,让你时刻觉得很炫
生活过得很休闲,对我非常想念
非常想念

AS WITHOUT SO WITHIN

When the external search for an answer is in vain, I turned inwards.
It is said the Mind ask the question; the Heart has the answer.


What happen if I told you that God does not has a direct hold on you?
"The Lord will see and the Lord will provide." is not what you thought it is?

Because God is a God of love...and we are each made as an image of Him, therefore we are His love.
Because of God's love, we are not just puppet creatures he created for fun and plan and stage every event of our live and watch us drifting through life like some soap opera.
Because of His love, we are given the freedom. The freedom to choose, the freedom to decide and even the freedom to reject Him.

This freedom means that we make decision and choose our own path. When we make the wrong choices, either we ourselves suffered OR others suffered because of us.



IF no death or major harm happened, I would say there is no right or wrong choice. Only different lessons to be learn. The roads may be different, but it will lead to the same destination if you press on. The key is: keep moving forward.

Life no longer is just discovery but creation. We CANNOT create the situation we are in, but we CAN create HOW WE react to the situation. We no longer just walk a single path or applied a single solution, but we are able to CREATE our own path and a NEW solution.

But all is not lost. Hope is still around IF you know where to look. It doesn’t have to be a big thing. Sometime and most of the time. it’s always the small things that count.


In search for my answer, I finally turn inwards to seek for them. I found 2.

1. Because of God's love, the freedom He grants us, He no longer can intervene any mishap. The pain that we felt is cast back onto Him 10x, 20x or even a 100x. Such is the love that parents willing to bear for their children; husband willing to bear for his wife; and God willing to bear for us.

2. Because people just die. Life has a beginning and an ending. People just simply die.



I created a forest, a rain forest. And I got lost inside. I walk on and on while searching for an answer; searching for a way out. In the end, I was never lost. And now the way out is clearly in front but I’d grow complacence in this comfort forest of mine and I fear to walk out of it.

I lay down watching the night sky waiting for the right time to come...

28th Of April

Its her birthday. 3 Months. 3 months has passed. The feeling still so raw. I cannot thole the pain.


A: Because we all have sinned, therefore we all must suffer and die.
B: Becuase such was her destiny, her life was written on the Book long ago.
C: Because she had done her part in this life, it is time for her to return.
D: Because she was suffering, and she was took back; to free her from the pain.



Is that the answer? I think not. I do not understand Thy designs at all. Sigh.
And my search is in vain. Thy has not show me the answer.
Still, I will westle with Thy and never let go.

Sighness. AND NO ONE is allow to walk out of me like that, that include U too.
*Hugs*

Agamemnon - Aeschylus - 3rd Century BCE

And even in our sleep,
pain which cannot forget
falls drop by drop upon the heart,
and in our own despite,
against our will,
comes wisdom to us
by the awful grace of God.

Eulogy for the Martyred Children - Martin Luther King Jr. - 1963

Now I say to you in conclusion,
life is hard,
at times as hard as crucible steel. (Mmm)

It has its bleak and difficult moments.
Like the ever-flowing waters of the river,
life has its moments of drought and its moments of flood. (Yeah)
Like the ever-changing cycle of the seasons,
life has the soothing warmth of its summers
and the piercing chill of its winters. (Yeah)

But if one will hold on,
he will discover that God walks with him, (Yeah. Well)
and that God is able (Yeah) to lift you from the fatigue of despair
to the buoyancy of hope
and transform dark and desolate valleys
into sunlit paths of inner peace. (Mmm)

MEET THE ROBINSONS (SOUNDTRACK)

Artist: Rob Thomas
Song: Little Wonders


let it go,
let it roll right off your shoulder
don't you know
the hardest part is over
let it in,
let your clarity define you
in the end
we will only just remember how it feels

our lives are made
in these small hours
these little wonders,
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away,
but these small hours,
these small hours still remain

let it slide,
let your troubles fall behind you
let it shine
until you feel it all around you
and i don't mind
if it's me you need to turn to
we?ll get by,
it's the heart that really matters in the end

our lives are made
in these small hours
these little wonders,
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away,
but these small hours,
these small hours still remain

all of my regret
will wash away some how
but i can not forget
the way i feel right now

in these small hours
these little wonders
these twists & turns of fate
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away but these small hours
these small hours, still remain,
still remain
these little wonders
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away
but these small hours
these little wonders still remain



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Had a loving day after my 2nd paper in the morning. Really enjoy it.
Caught the movie “Meet the Robinsons” in the evening, was really a nice, warm-hearted, comical show. Just that an unexpected scenario hit me. The ending part, when everything fall into place, when he found what he long for, or was even much better than what he had wish for. The shine that was in his eyes. . .


Maybe because I wasn’t harboring any hope after 2 weeks they didn’t call me up for interview, when my friend got called up 3 days after submitting his application ... and yet surprising when I decided that its gone case, I got ring up on the 3rd week.

The interview went so smooth and all... but till now, I still never receive their 2nd call for the 2nd round. Sigh.

It’s like Lewis in the "Meet the Robinsons". He was holding on to the hope that he can catch a glance of him mum thru his Memory Scanner. The machine failed as Doris sabotaged it. Then he was promised by Wilbur to go back into the past using the time machine, but Wilbur never mean it, it was an empty promise. =/

Of cos in the end, Wilbur did fulfill his promise =)

But before that, it was like raising Lewis hope before crashing it flat. ouch.
Maybe that's how I feel bah. Too much uncertainty lately. And life turning into another path soon.... yet I still can’t see where im heading to next...
I need to hold on. Sigh. Or simply "keep moving forward (as my dear bro khai has corrected me)".

Like what dear said: you won’t know what life has installed for you. Don’t worry about it bah. Everything will fall into place nicely..."

Its all in the mind. Got to stay strong and keep moving forward bah! =)

6 Weird Things About Myself.

Ok! So, I was told/asked/challenged to do this =x
okok kidding =p


1. I’m a Mummy!
LOL. Ok before u guys eyes started to pop-out, let me did my explaining.
Somehow, having this 3 'little ones' (not that little =p) who feel that instead of been a big bro to them, I’m more like a nagging mother and one of them decided to call me 'mummy' (@@ roll eyes) which leads to the other 2 following.
But I’m proud of this 3 kids =) They are wonders to have.


2. I love chocolates BUT i get sick eating too much of them =x
Just happened that somehow my body dont really accept them well =/
and and arhhhh Chocolates T.T got nice nice Royce in fridge =x


3. Im the Sun and the Rain XD
ok there~. My surname is Sun..... and somehow taken upon the 'pen' name rain... =)
so there! the sun and the rain. There's a saying that's very beautiful:
U need both the sun and the rain, to bring out the colors in the rainbow.


4. Im good at handicraft
Be it origami, or needlework (thought not really into it) if u are able to teach, im able to pick them up fast =x


5. er...not I said de... but my younger sis said I like to act cute
@@ *roll eyes*. bleh.


6. Im slow to heat up
ok. This is the usually comments I get. First few days when pple just know me, im like super quiet or sth.....then as time passed by they will wish they nv ask me to talk more. cos all sort of rubbish come out of my mouth. LOL =x


There~ 6 points as boss requested. =)

Why English is Soooo Hardddddd

1) The bandage was wound around the wound.
2) The farm was used to produce produce.
3) The dump was so full that it had to refuse more refuse.
4) We must polish the Polish furniture.
5) He could lead if he would get the lead out.
6) The soldier decided to desert his dessert in the desert.
7) Since there is no time like the present, he thought it was time to present the present.
8) A bass was painted on the head of the bass drum.
9) When shot at, the dove dove into the bushes.
10) I did not object to the object.
11) The insurance was invalid for the invalid.
12) There was a row among the oarsmen about how to row.
13) They were too close to the door to close it.
14) The buck does funny things when the does are present.
15) A seamstress and a sewer fell down into a sewer line.
16) To help with planting, the farmer taught his sow to sow.
17) The wind was too strong to wind the sail.
18) After a number of injections my jaw got number.
19) Upon seeing the tear in the painting I shed a tear.
20) I had to subject the subject to a series of tests.
21) How can I intimate this to my most intimate friend?

ABOUT ME

http://dna.imagini.net/friends/

Do Not Worry

Matthew 6

25 "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?

28 "And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.


I shall not worry so much.
I know that Im able to finish up my exam preparation in time.
I know that I will be ok for the coming interview which happen to be the day before the first paper.
I know that things are getting better and better.
Thus, i should not worry.

Thanks to my luck star. *hug*

ANOTHER QUIZZ FROM DIL

1. Song playing at the moment?
身边有太多风景 我却停在这里
说我傻的可以 还不是因为你 ~ (someone voice still ring in my head =x )


2. Reasons for living?
resons for dying?

3. Do you think you're ok?
Do you think that I'm NOT ok?

4. Ever donated blood?
tried. they said: boy, u can go to the refreshment le, ur vein too small, the smallest needle also cannot".............

5. Favorite color(s)?
white then black

6. Accessories you usually wear
bracelet and ring =x

7. One song to describe a heartbreak in the past?
The wind (Tears for you)

8. Last place you went to?
the market? coffeeshop?

9. Last person you went out with?
Jared! =)

10. The most exciting sport?
basketball!

11. Ever had a baby?
carrying xiao pf now =x

12. Movie you wanna watch?
er alot =.=

13. Any piercings?
none =)

14. The most romantic gift?
shhhhhhhhhh =x

15. Act on stage before?
sort of.

16. Struck by lightning before?
er electric shock count? ^^

17. Danced with your loved one before?
shall we ? ^^

18. Ever wished you could turn back time?
wished. but may be... may be i will walked back this current path............

19. What would you do if you woke up one day to find yourself to be with someone from the opposite sex?
omg! er the only possibility is my 'lao gong' =x
then i'll said: "coffee, tea, or me?" =x

20. One song that's meaningful to you?
one? got so many =x

21. Last person you met for the first time?
Grace's friend and heehs Fen's BF !

22. What will you be doing on the weekend?
weekend? weekday lei.......... and im rotting =x

23. Ever thought of robbing a bank?
will u help me? ^^

24. One thing you totally regret doing/done?
doubt kitty words.

25. Do people like you?
Do you?

26. What was the last game you played on the computer?
reversi! =D

27. Someone who means a lot to you at the moment?
so many. but but dear the most =x

28. The colour of you mobile phone?
chocolate black?

29. Do you hate someone at the moment?
nope.

30. What do you wish to happen now?
someone offer me a good paid job!!!

31. Last time you ate pizza?
march? or was in Feb? 3 person ate a 4 pple meal =.=

32. Ever been given a ring?
er =x gif other counted?

31. Do people think you're weird?
LOL =x good Question ^^

34. Movies now showing that you hate?
nope bah.

35. Most important thing in your room?
phone =x a letter. a postcard =x

36. Last movie watched?
300

37. Last television show watched?
random show

38. Who is the person you want to see right now?
dear =x

39. Ever called a person useless?
nope.

40. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
i guess so =x

41. Have you ever regretted liking someone?
hmmm?

FOUNDATION

When two person get connects together, linked up or whatever... a bridge has to be built.

The building of this bridge cannot be done in a rush. The foundation has to be laid brick by brick. Taking care that each brick is firmly in place, before laying the next brick. Such is the case for the foundation of a relationship too.

If the foundation is not build properly, a single strain may cause the whole bridge to collapse; a relationship to fail.

I use to argue it’s always better to follow this pattern:
Acquaintance->friend->close friend->couple

Because such is the case where the foundation is laid strongly; step by step, brick by brick. However, this is really a rare case.

Most pple usually goes from:
Acquaintance->friend->couple
Acquaintance->couple

The state of 'close friend' is omitted. Why?
Because of the intense feeling of attraction; the 'wants' and 'long' for each other.
This intense feeling cloud our mind/thoughts/emotion and of cos logic.

So what happen when this is the case? Does the bridge collapse when a strong wind blow?
Maybe. Maybe not.

Then how much are u going to commit yourself? After all the intense attraction faded away, that is when the hard work came in. How much then are you willing to put into this relationship? How much are u willing to sacrifice?

Love is a choice.
A choice to share.
A choice to commit.
A choice to embrace.
A choice to care.
A choice to trust.
A choice to love.

FOR YOU - WORDS FROM MY HEART

When darkness descends upon me, I lost my way.
But you walk into my life and show me the light.

When pain descends upon me, I couldn’t move.
But you took my hands and lead me on.

When all my hopes and dreams are far away, I seem so small in this huge world.
But you give me the courage and strength to press on.

The night sky is filled with stars,
But my eyes are on you. On you only.

There's a special corner in my mind,
You are always there. Every thought; I see you.

There's a special corner in my heart,
You are always there. Every heartbeat; I feel you.


You know that I'll be there for you. Always there for you.

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Game: Final Fantasy VIII
Song: Eyes on Me
Perfomed by: Faye Wong

Whenever sang my songs
On the stage, on my own
Whenever said my words
Wishing they would be heard
I saw you smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy
You'd always be there in the corner
Of this tiny little bar

My last night here for you
Same old songs, just once more
My last night here with you?
Maybe yes, maybe no
I kind of liked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me

Oh, did you ever know?
That I had mine on you

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

So let me come to you
Close as I wanted to be
Close enough for me
To feel your heart beating fast
And stay there as I whisper

How I loved your peaceful eyes on me
did you ever know
That I had mine on you

Darling, so share with me
Your love if you have enough
Your tears if your're holding back
Or pain if that's what it is
How can I let you know
I'm more than the dress and the voice
Just reach me out then
You will know that you're not dreaming

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

THY DESIGNS

Where have I sinned, O Lord? At what moment have I strayed from what Thou desirest of me? If Thou art discontent with me, why hast Thou not taken me from this world? Instead, Thou hast afflicted yet again those who succored me and loved me.

i do not understand Thy designs. I see no justice in Thy acts. In bearing the suffering Thou hast imposed on me. I am sorely wanting. Remove Thyself from my life, for I too am reduces to ruins, fire, and dust."


There. This clearly still reflects my thoughts. If good people are going to hell cos they does not follow Christ, then surely even if Im a Christian, i shall be burning in hell, cos im much much worse than them. =)


Matthew 5:45
He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous

everyone need healing, a kind word, a smile. In mine twisted believed, Christian, Buddhist and all, we are all God's children.



A passage from "The Fifth Mountain"

Every human being at some time had tragedy enter his life; it might be the destruction of a city, the death of a son, an unproved accusation, a sickness that left one lame forever. At that moment, God challenged one to confront Him and to answer His question: "Why dost thou cling fast to an existence so short and so filled with suffering? What is the meaning of thy struggle?"

The man who did not know how to answer this question would resign himself, while another, one who sought a meaning to existence, feeling that God had been unjust, would challenge his own destiny. It was at this moment that fire of a different type descended from the heavens - not the fire that kills but the kind that tears down ancient walls and imparts to each human being his true possibilities.

Cowards never allow their hearts to blaze with this fire; all they desire is for the changed situation to quickly return to what it was before, so they can go on living their lives and thinking in their customary way. The brave, however, set afire that which was old and, even at the cost of great internal suffering, abandon everything. Including God, and continue onward.

"The brave are always stubborn."

From heaven, God smiles contentedly, for it was this that He desired, that each person take into his hands the responsibility for his own life. For, in the final analysis, He had given His children the greatest of all gifts: the capacity to choose and determine their acts.

Only those men and women with the sacred flame in their hearts had the courage to confront Him. And they alone know the path back to His love, for they understood that tragedy was not punishment but challenge.


Why do people suffer if God is everything and power?
Because of his love. His love for us, grant us our freedom. The freedom to choose. He does not plot and script our lives like a drama, but given us the freedom to choose the path ourselves.

And because of this freedom, sometimes we make wrong choices. Other people may suffer because of our choices. Or we ourselves suffered. But because God Himself is love, we, who are make as an image of Him, is the product of His love.

Then surely, we, are love.

But do we love only those we are the same 'design' as us?

Check out EXPO mrt station on SAT. This lady in wheelchair singing... trying to sell tissues.... so how MANY CHIRSTIAN did bother to stop and brought from her?

So where did the teaching: "IF U LEND TO THE POOR, U LEND TO ME, YOUR GOD AND I WILL RETURN TO U IN MULTIPLE FOLD"


What does that show? Dont tell me that there's report that these pple can earn up to a few K and go on holidays by selling tissues, and they are cheating pple.
HELLO! Wake up! If u have the right to go for holiday, who ARE U to deny other pple right to go for holiday too? Just cos they earn by selling tissues they shouldn’t be rich and get to enjoy life????


Being a Christian means nothing. Only those that I have seen following in God's way are the ones that I truly respect. Action speaks louder than Words.

CARRY WITH U THESE GIFTS OF THE HEART

Trust...
that whatever happens, there is someone who will understand.

Honesty...
the feeling that you never need to hold back...

Peace...
in being accepted for who you really are.

Beauty...
in outlook more than appearance.

Freedom...
to be yourself, to change, and to grow.

Joy...
in ever day,
in every memory,
and in your hopes for the future.

Love...
to last a lifetime,
and perhaps beyond.

爱的主旋律 - 卓文萱/小鬼

U know, this is the song of us =x the lyrics.. when i saw it.. OMG =x


爱的主旋律 - 卓文萱/小鬼歌词


男：是你在那个雨季 走进我生命
带着一点任性 和温柔的表情

女：是你在那个雨季 赶走了孤寂
温暖的笑容 换我仅有的甜蜜

男：天上一万颗星星我却只看见你
你说这是幸运 还是不可思议

女：身边有太多风景 我却停在这里
说我傻的可以 还不是因为你

男：是你的声音
女：带给我勇气
男：恋爱的频率
女：直到我心底
男：如果你愿意
女：是的我愿意
合：带着我幸福的主旋律

男：从前的实际
女：现在我相信
男：天空会放晴
女：爱会更甜蜜
男：如果你愿意
女：是我的愿意
合：爱的主旋律
合：永远唱下去

QUIZZ

Kop from Dil blog =x


1.two words to describe urself right now?
VERYVERYVERYVERYVERYVERYVERYVERYVERYVERYVERYVERYVERYVERYVERY BORED!
(there~ 2 words =D)

2. At what age do you want to die?
er 80+ ? 90+?

3. name 3 of your crazy friends
lao dou is cazy. so is dil =x. and then hmmmm me? =x

4. what's your favorite number/s?
2 =x come in a pair =D

5. Do you wish to have people crying or laughing during your funeral?
both? =x


6. last number of your phone number?
9

7. who was the first person that came to your mind as you woke up this
morning?
dear =x

8. what was the last thing to make you feel like killing?
er im harmless de =x

9. what song is on your mind right now?
MO LI HUA ! LOL

10. what was the last thing you wrote
thing =p

11. who do you want to call on your cellphone?
dear =x

12. Are you in love?
am i ? =]

13. what color/s do you like?
white and then black.

14. last song that you sang?
I'll think i love u before i meet u~ i think i dream u into life~

15. do you like to sing?
someone love to force me sing =x

16. have you ever been to Baguio?
How abt oiugab?

17. what was the last song that you danced to?
bom cha cha, bom cha cha =p er just random. i dont dance =x

18. favorite songs:
any that dear sing ^^

19. why are you answering this?
why are u reading this ^^

20. who last commented you on myspace?
my space muhahahaha! thou shall not invade =x

21. last person you emailed?
its DR ALEX TAY ! My fyp examiner =x

22. have you worn/are you wearing braces [teeth]
can i get one? =x

23. how often do you buy load?
bread? i get them in single or double, Tank Q.

24. who's the last person in your phonebook?
dangerous Q... later dear think i moonlight =x
luckily its Zhong hao! =D

25. if you were given a chance to visit another country what would it be?
CANADA!

26. name the person that you wish to fall for you at this moment.
already fallen =x

27. what do you want to happen right now?
smack butt! LOL =x oooops die >.<~

28. Where would your favorite place for a piercing be?
noooo. none =x

29 What alcoholic beverage did you drink when you got drunk the first time?
i know when to stop =.=!

30 How old were you when you first moved away from your hometown?
14! Forever 14! wheeeeeeeeee~

31 Where did you go on your first airplane ride?
cant remember...should be thailand bah.

32 How old were you then?
er ... er.... 14? 15? =x

33 Who was your first Best Friend and are you still friends?
OMG. i teh old...cannot remember le la zzzzzzzz. but then =/ got one in pri sch... this guy tall tall one..... that time i short short la =x

35 The biggest, hardest sacrifice you ever made?
=/

36 Do you prefer elves or vampires?
vampires goes bite bite =x but elves suppose to be more er mystic

37 Describe your hair right now:
gong gong look =x

INTERVIEW

When for my first interview. Well, the interview did goes pretty well... except when I thought its ending.... I was told to attempt a short test... right..

and basically i failed the test.... I wasnt prepared for it! zzzZ
all the programming, pointers, OS stuffs....

Its a good experience still... but netherless felt abit lost....
I wonder if software engineering is for me =/

which direction should i head for now?

QUOTES II

Was searching around for quotes and I found this:

Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow
I am the diamond glint on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you wake in the morning hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circling flight
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry
I am not there, I did not die.

Mary Frye


and i wonder if she's watching over us on the clouds.

QUOTES

“But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was upon him, and by his wounds we are healed. We all, like sheep, have gone astray, each of us has turned to his own way; and the LORD has laid on him the iniquity of us all.”- Isaiah 53:5-6


gone astray? where are u God? Im still searching for u.....


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The pure, overcome-all-odds love story is something every girl will dream to have...To have someone sweep us off the feet and fight for love in a big way...to feel love for that someone in spite of all rationals, with all the obstacles ahead...to feel that love can triumph...to have a happy ending...

No matter how unrealistic it can be, sometimes it doesnt hurt to just wonder and dream a little about it...right? *smiles*

took this off from someone blog entry. Found this quite true. =)
we can create grand dreams that never leave the ground, or we can be builders of dreams that come true...

Its the same for guys in some ways i guess.... to be able to provide... to be able to clear all obstacles... holding on... and making sure, assuring that no matter what happen, he will stay with her till the end... yap =)

MEMORIES

Someone bumped up an old post of mine in the forum. Tons of memories flow back. They were tears of joys and of laughters. But no longer do they exist. Now, what is left is only the emptiness. So many familiar names no longer around. People you used to know so well are no longer by your side.







cast emo aside. Okie! found tons of spelling errors, grammar, vocab errors on my post. =x and i 'saw' that me. Young. Reckless. Strong. Confidence.
Guess parts of that me have die. Gotto take time to rebuild myself up. Time.



"All your life
you are told the things you cannot do.

All your life they will say
you're not good enough or strong enough
or talented enough.

They'll say you're the wrong height
or the wrong type to play this or be this
or achieve this.

THEY WILL TELL YOU NO,
a thousand times no until all the no's become meaningless.

All your life they will tell you no,
quite firmly and very quickly. They will tell you no.

And YOU WILL TELL THEM YES."

SUN

There will be time... when it rain.... time when the dark cloud covers the sun....
time when the night fall......... and everything turn dark...


But the sun is always there. Never stop shining. U may not be able to see it, but nevertheless, its there.

Never stop shining. For us. =)

Closed Doors are a Blessing

Open doors in life means opportunity, progress and promotion. But unexpectedly certain open doors close. It leaves you desperate. Then you cry out, ``O my God, where are you? Is it all over for me? Open one door for me. Give me a sign of your goodness.1''

This cry comes from desperation. But you as God's child need to be better informed about closed doors. They do not mean that it is the end of the road for you. They do not mean that God has stopped caring for you. But it means quite the opposite. You need to understand the loving care with which God closes doors in your life.

Do not be surprised; you should know for sure that it is God who opens and closes doors in your life. As long as you think it is some human being or institution that does it you are going to be sadly mistaken. If you trust in Jesus; He is the one who opens and closes doors in your life: ``What he opens no one can shut, and what he shuts no one can open'' (Revelation 2:7b NIV).

Therefore, be sure and fully convinced that the closed doors in your life are His doing. You need not blame anyone for that. You need not curse your circumstances. The best thing to do is to thank God for closing those doors in your life. Is that easy to do? Not at all. But that is the best thing you can do!

Now, if you are convinced that it is God who closes doors, you are ready to think of why He does so:


God closes doors so that you can change directions.

Many times you keep on doing what you do all your life. But God might certainly have better things in store for you. Since you are comfortable doing what you are now doing and good at it; you will never think about changing directions at all. You will never even give it a passing thought. So to get your attention, God will close doors in your face. He will not allow them to be opened again for you however hard you try.

It is only then that you will listen to what God has to say to you. He might whisper to you to try something new, to take up a new job, apply for a promotion etc. Now you are ready to hear and obey. Earlier, when the sailing was smooth, you were happy cruising along. Now that you are without a ship to sail; you will start looking for the next ship, maybe a small boat for the time being, that God has kept ready for you.

For example, in the life of Elijah, God provided him with bread and meat through ravens. And He provided him with water from the brook. But then some time later the brook dried up. That was a door that closed on him. Now God had his attention. A new command then came to him to go at once to Zarephath where God had commanded a widow to provide for him. [That was a new direction in his life.] But he was made ready to listen and obey because of a closed door in his life (Ref. I Kings 17:2--9). Again, the most important thing was that God had closed a door and opened another door for him.

So closed doors in your life are God's attention-grabbers. Thank God for them. He is pointing you to a new direction in life. It's going to be exciting.



God closes doors so that you can learn to pray more.

Isn't it true that doors that are open never inspire you to pray much? That is simply because you take them for granted. You do not give it a second thought. You may be thankful for it; but not consciously giving thanks to God for it. But when the door closes, you suddenly become aware of how much it had meant to you. You feel with awesome helplessness the immovable strength of a closed door shut in your face.

Then, in sheer helplessness, you hit the dust on your knees. And you cry out, ``O God, help me!'' The cry echoes in emptiness. You will feel the pain of rejection. You cry out: ``My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?2'' Still no answer. All is darkness. You feel despair. You feel gnawing emptiness. But you have no other way. You continue to pray until there comes an assurance in your heart that God has heard. His peace settles in your heart. Now you can eagerly expect God to open some door for you.

But the moments just before the door opens are the toughest for it is said that the darkest hour is just before dawn. That means, that the time before you receive the answer to prayer is the darkest. It is then that you need to pray more.

In the Bible we find Daniel in the land of Babylon. He was taken there with the Israelites as captive in war. They were there seventy years. As those years were coming to a close, Daniel understood from the Book of Jeremiah3 that their captivity was coming to an end (Ref. Daniel 9:2). He did not dance about when he understood that. But he prayed with all his heart. He confessed his sins and the sins of his fathers (Ref. Daniel 9:4--19); for if there is sin in one's heart God would not hear prayer4. And there came a King named Cyrus who ordered the survivors of the captives to go back to Jerusalem5.

Thus Daniel prayed intensely in the darkest hour just before the dawn of their freedom. And they got it. And Daniel lived to see the doors of freedom open!

So closed doors teach you to pray more. They grip your heart with such force that you pray like you've never prayed before. And when doors open; you will thankfully realize that you have moved up another level in the prayer ladder. Therefore pray with all your might when doors close on you.



God closes doors so that you will stop trusting in man.

It is only when you have knocked at closed doors that you understand that the help of man cannot be trusted. It is during such times you come to know the true character of those whom you expected would help. You might have been given hope day after day by their soothing words of promise. Until one day you found them telling you not to trouble them anymore. Then you felt the pain of being let down; the pain of having been deceived into believing those words which gave you false hopes.

And now you are alone! But Someone stands alongside, waiting for you to realize that He is standing by. Closed doors do help you to see Him stand by your side. Many times He knocked at your heart to tell you that He is willing to help. But then your eyes and hopes were set on those men who had promised to help. So you never heard His knocking. You never opened the doors for Him.

Now that you find every door closed; you are ready to listen to Him. It is now you are ready to say along with the Psalmist: ``Some trust in chariots and some in horses, but we trust in the name of the Lord our God. They are brought to their knees and fall, but we rise up and stand firm'' (Psalm 20:7,8 NIV). Now you are ready to get rid of those chariots and horses in which you trusted. And now you are ready to see God open doors for you.

So closed doors compels you to stop trusting in man. It helps you see that God alone can open doors for you.



God closes doors so that you will wait for His time.

In the wisdom of this world any time is right. In the eyes of this world there is no concept like waiting for God's specific time. But when God deals with you, His child, He often closes doors so that you will wait for His right time.

You have to know that there are many reasons why God would do this. He does it to prepare circumstances. He prepares them in such a fashion that it will be to your best advantage when His time comes. If you act before His time it will be like plucking an unripe fruit. He knows when it is going to be ripe and ready to be eaten. He closes doors so that you will not pluck the unripe fruit. He will open them only when it is ripe. Then it will be to your best advantage.

In the Bible we see this in the life of Joseph. He was put in prison. There he interpreted the dreams of two men. He told one of them, the chief cupbearer of the king, to remember him when all goes well with him. Joseph also asked him to mention him to Pharaoh and to get his release from prison. Even though the chief cupbearer was restored to his position, the Bible says that he did not remember Joseph but forgot him.

Two full years passed by. Joseph might have lost hope that the cupbearer would get him out of prison. But then God's time came. Pharaoh had dreams. Nobody could interpret them. Then the chief cupbearer remembered Joseph. Immediately, Joseph was brought out of prison. And he became Governor of the land.

It all happened quickly. So also it can happen to you if you wait for God's time. Joseph tried to make his release come in his own time. But God closed the door then. He opened it after two years. This was because God had now prepared the circumstances. Now Joseph became the governor of the land.
Have you ever thought what would have happened if Joseph got his release two years ago? He would have got Have you ever thought what would have happened if Joseph got his release two years ago? He would have got his freedom only to become somebody's slave again!
his freedom only to become somebody's slave again! Have you ever thought what would have happened if Joseph got his release two years ago? He would have got his freedom only to become somebody's slave again!

So closed doors teach you to wait for God's time.




God is preparing you for the task ahead while you wait behind closed doors.

This is a more important process that happens to you while you wait for God's time--God is preparing you for the task ahead. God knows what qualities and strength of character you need to be able to handle the honor that you will be given when He opens doors. For that He allows you to pass through difficulties behind closed doors.

All the waiting, all the hardships and all the misunderstanding and ridicule that you are facing now is building muscles of steely-faith in your mind. You are being molded and shaped by God to meet your glorious destiny. The more tough your closed door; the greater the exaltation God has planned for you.

You can know this lesson from Joseph's life itself: ``And he sent a man before them--Joseph, sold as a slave. They bruised his feet with shackles, his neck was put in irons, till what he foretold came to pass, till the word of the Lord proved him true. The king sent and released him, the ruler of the peoples set him free. He made him master of his household, ruler over all he possessed, to instruct his princes as he pleased and teach his elders wisdom'' (Psalm 105:17--22 NIV).

The dream of greatness was God's promise to Joseph. And He prepared him behind closed doors to give him the exaltation that was promised earlier.

So closed doors guard God's preparation ground to make you ready for the greatness that He has kept in store for you!




The Open Door
Finally, you have to really [think hard] on a claim that Jesus makes: ``See, I have placed before you an open door that no one can shut'' (Revelation 3:8a NIV).

It is often found that when you see the possibility of a door opening you also start doubting. Most of these doubts are silly. But during this time they appear large and threatening. At this time if you start believing the doubts you will not enjoy the blessing of the open door. For destroying these doubts you will have to boldly say out loud that what God has opened for you no one can shut. You have to believe it with all your heart. You have to affirm it loud to those who try to encourage those doubts in your mind. Yes, shout it out loud that what God has opened no one can shut.

That is the cry of victory. It is the shout of triumph.

Now you can rejoice when God closes doors. For closed doors are a blessing to you. Thank Him for it.

But be bold to declare open closed doors in His name when He gives you the assurance that He has kept an open door before you which no one can shut!

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Like what the about articles said. most doubts are silly. And yes. doubts can appear large and threatening. I goto lean on God's shoulder. Trusting him to guide me.
As she put her trust in me, I believe with all my heart, that I will never break her trust. I will never never intent to.


But im not perfect. And im careless and forgetful =x
Gentle reminders will be needed.

OK. IM BORED =X

You are Ocean Blue

You're both warm and practical. You're very driven, but you're also very well rounded. You tend to see both sides to every issue, and people consider you a natural diplomat.

What Color Blue Are You?

RAINBOW

My heart leaps up when I behold
A Rainbow in the sky:

- William Wordsworth


YEaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Finally things are cleared up.

勇气

梁静茹勇气
词:光良曲:瑞业

终于做了这个决定
别人怎么说我不理
只要你也一样的肯定
我愿意天涯海角都随你去
我知道一切不容易
我的心一直温习说服自己
最怕你忽然说要放弃

爱真的需要勇气
来面对流言蜚语
只要你一个眼神肯定
我的爱就有意义
我们都需要勇气
去相信会在一起
人潮拥挤我能感觉你
放在我手心里你的真心

如果我的坚强任性
会不小心伤害了你
你能不能温柔提醒
我虽然心太急更害怕错过你


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love really need courage. The courage to love. To give.
No matter what happen, u hold fast to each other.
Holding on to the believe.
No matter what happen, u have each other.


This:
如果我的坚强任性
会不小心伤害了你
你能不能温柔提醒
我虽然心太急更害怕错过你
is so true =x

SORRY

Because of my stubbornness, i choose to love her no matter what happened.

In the mist of things, I’d hurt a friend of ours. I can only said im sorry to her.
I dont know how many others get hurt because of this. Sorry people. I do cherish u guys as my friends.

But i truly love this girl. And for everything in the world, i will give everything up for her.
Everything. Including my life.