Emotional Baggages

When we left pains and hurts that we never deal with, they become emotional baggages in our life. We may have moved on, chucked it aside. Forgotten. But nevertheless its still there.

While helping a friend to cope with her depression/pain. I got emotionally attached to her problem. Her problem become The problem. The problem become My problem.

Emotional baggages started to surface, and brought back all the past pain.
Half a yr YOUNG baby Christian, I should have learnt not to rely on myself.

Lean on God's shoulder was so much easier. Time to admit defeated. The problem was too big for me alone. Yet too small for God. I'll leave her in God's hand. God's will guide and heal this silly girl who cling onto a broken relationship. May God grace be apon her always.

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RAIN DOWN

Looks like tonight, the sky is heavy
Feels like the winds are gonna change
Beneath my feet, the earth is ready
I know its time for heaven’s rain, it’s gonna rain
It’s gonna rain, again

Cos it’s living water we desire
To flood our hearts with holy fire

Rain down all around the world we’re singing
Rain down can you hear the earth is singing
Rain down my heart is dry but still I’m singing
Rain down rain it down on me

Back to the start, my heart is heavy
Feels like it’s time, to dream again
I hear your voice, and yes I’m ready
To dance upon this barren land
Hope in my hands

Do not shut, Do not shut, Do not shut the heavens
But open up, open up, open up our hearts

Give me strength to cross the water
Keep my heart upon your altar
Give me strength to cross this water
Keep my feet don’t let me falter


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I soaked myself in the rain.

WINTER OVER DUE ~ Time to Soar

Here I am waiting
Abide in me I pray
Here I am longing
For You
Hide me in Your love
Bring me to my knees
May I know Jesus
More and more

Come live in me
All my life
Take over
Come breathe in me
I will rise
On eagle's wings

LET THE BROKEN HEARTED REJOICE

"Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest." (Matthew: 11:28)


GOD IS HERE
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In your presence, there is fullness of life
And healing flowing, for body soul and mind
God of miracles, God of the impossible is here
God is here

God is here
Let the broken hearted rejoice (lift up your head)
God is here
Let the sick say I am well (all sufficient One)
God is here
Let the weak say I am strong (let the weak say I am strong!)
God is here
His wonders to perform

In your presence, there is perfect peace
In the stillness, I behold your deity
God of wonders, God of power is here
God is here

[Chorus]

O His wonders, yes His wonders
His wonders to perform
(Repeat)
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I'll need some rest.

2 Corinthians 2:3-5 (in Context) 2 Corinthians 2 AMP

For I wrote you out of great sorrow and deep distress [with mental torture and anxiety] of heart, [yes, and] with many tears, not to cause you pain but in order to make you realize the overflowing love that I continue increasingly to have for you.

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Sigh.

THE WIND (TEARS FOR YOU)

Artist - Cece Winans
Album - Everlasting Love
Lyrics - The Wind (Tears For You)

With all of my heart I know I could love you
But with all of my soul I'm driftin' away
And with all of my mind I know you can save me from
myself, and anything else

With all of my strength I wanna reach out for you
With every breath, call out your name
With every step I just want to turn around and say
Make it okay

But I'm so afriad you've forgiven one too many times
And I'm so afraid to give my heart again
Just to have a change of mind
And I'm not quite sure that you can trust me
And I would hate to have you find me again
Driftin' away like the wind

With all of my heart I know I disappointed you
And although I'm real sorry I don't know how to say this time
But if I were to lose you I know, I know I'd go completely
Out of my mind, but I'm running out of time

But I'm so afriad you've forgiven one too many times
And I'm so afraid to give my heart again
Just to have a change of mind
And I'm not quite sure that you can trust me
And I would hate to have you find me again
Driftin' away like the wind

It blows and nobody know where it's goin' to
(Like the wind)
It blows and nobody know what it's gonna do
(Like the wind)
At night you can hear it cry as the teardrops fall
From Heaven's eyes and somehow you know it's true

These tears that fall could be fallin' for you

BROKEN WINGS

I know this will not remain forever
However it's beautiful
Your eyes,hands and your warm smile
They're my treasure
It's hard to forget
I wish there was a solution
Don't spend your time in confusion
I will turn back now and spread

My broken wings still strong enough to cross the ocean with
My broken wings how far should i go drifting in the wind
Higher and higher in the light
My broken wings still strong enough to cross the ocean with
My broken wings how far should i go drifting in the wind
Across the sky,just keep on flying

Did i ever chain you down to my heart
'Cause i was never afraid of you
No,I couldn't hold you any longer
Love is not a toy
Let go of me now
The time we spend is perpetual
Our future is not real
I'll leap into the air

My broken wings still strong enough to cross the ocean with
My broken wings how far should i go drifting in the wind
Higher and higher in the light
My broken wings still strong enough to cross the ocean with
My broken wings how far should i go drifting in the wind
Across the sky,just keep on flying

I know this will not remain forever
However it's beautiful
Your eyes,hands and your warm smile
They're my treasure
It's hard to forget
I wish there was a solution
Don't spend your time in confusion
I will turn back now and spread

My broken wings still strong enough to cross the ocean with
My broken wings how far should i go drifting in the wind
Higher and higher in the light
My broken wings still strong enough to cross the ocean with
My broken wings how far should i go drifting in the wind
Across the sky,just keep on flying

Keisoku no dekinai itami to keisoku no dekinai jikan no narega
Subete wo umete shimaou toshitemo
Soredemo watashi ni wa kanjirareru
Sora kara ochitekuru no wa
Sora kara ochitekuru no wa ame de wa nakute


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someone posted this lyrics. Though I never heard this song before, the lyrics touches me.

then a random conversation brought this words:
to be happy she/he must want to be happy more than wanting to be with him/her
and understand that sometimes people just cannot unlove or unlike another person....

JESUS IS MY LORD

Had a nightmare last night. Something was creeping towards me.... freaking.
I just freezed. Till it always touches me.
when I shouted: : JESUS IS MY LORD !

Then I woke up.


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[ Heart of Worship ]


When the music fades and all is stripped away
And I simply come
Longing just to bring something that's of worth
That will bless Your heart

I'll bring You more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You
All about You, Jesus
I'm sorry, Lord, for the things I've made it
When it's all about You
All about You, Jesus

King of endless worth, no one could express
How much You deserve
Though I'm weak and poor, all I have is Yours
Every single breath


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I'm sorry, Lord, for the things I've made it. Forgive me.

神的孩子都在跳舞

歌曲：倔强
歌手：五月天


当我和世界不一样那就让我不一样
坚持对我来说就是以刚克刚
我如果对自己妥协如果对自己说谎
即使别人不原谅我也不能原谅
最美的愿望一定最疯狂
我就是我自己的神在我活的地方
我和我最后的倔强握紧双手绝对不放
下一站是不是天堂就算失望不能绝望
我和我骄傲的倔强我在风中大声的唱
这一次为自己疯狂就这一次我和我的倔强

对爱我的人别紧张我的固执很善良
我的手越肮脏眼神越是发光
你不在乎我的过往看到了我的翅膀
你说被火烧过才能出现凤凰
逆风的方向更适合飞翔
我不怕千万人阻挡只怕自己投降
我和我最后的倔强握紧双手绝对不放
下一站是不是天堂就算失望不能绝望
我和我骄傲的倔强我在风中大声的唱
这一次为自己疯狂就这一次我和我的倔强
就这一次让我大声唱
lalalala...
就算失望不能绝望...
lalalalala...
就这一次我和我的倔强

LOST

Psalm 73
BOOK III : Psalms 73-89

1A psalm of Asaph.

Surely God is good to Israel,
to those who are pure in heart.

2 But as for me, my feet had almost slipped;
I had nearly lost my foothold.

3 For I envied the arrogant
when I saw the prosperity of the wicked.

4 They have no struggles;
their bodies are healthy and strong.

5 They are free from the burdens common to man;
they are not plagued by human ills.

6 Therefore pride is their necklace;
they clothe themselves with violence.

7 From their callous hearts comes iniquity;
the evil conceits of their minds know no limits.

8 They scoff, and speak with malice;
in their arrogance they threaten oppression.

9 Their mouths lay claim to heaven,
and their tongues take possession of the earth.

10 Therefore their people turn to them
and drink up waters in abundance.

11 They say, "How can God know?
Does the Most High have knowledge?"

12 This is what the wicked are like—
always carefree, they increase in wealth.

13 Surely in vain have I kept my heart pure;
in vain have I washed my hands in innocence.

14 All day long I have been plagued;
I have been punished every morning.

15 If I had said, "I will speak thus,"
I would have betrayed your children.

16 When I tried to understand all this,
it was oppressive to me

17 till I entered the sanctuary of God;
then I understood their final destiny.

18 Surely you place them on slippery ground;
you cast them down to ruin.

19 How suddenly are they destroyed,
completely swept away by terrors!

20 As a dream when one awakes,
so when you arise, O Lord,
you will despise them as fantasies.

21 When my heart was grieved
and my spirit embittered,

22 I was senseless and ignorant;
I was a brute beast before you.

23 Yet I am always with you;
you hold me by my right hand.

24 You guide me with your counsel,
and afterward you will take me into glory.

25 Whom have I in heaven but you?
And earth has nothing I desire besides you.

26 My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever.

27 Those who are far from you will perish;
you destroy all who are unfaithful to you.

28 But as for me, it is good to be near God.
I have made the Sovereign LORD my refuge;
I will tell of all your deeds.

The 3 plaques on God's desk

1) "Don't feel totally, personally, irrevocably, eternally responsible for everything. That's MY job."

2) "Everything you remember, I forget. Everything you forget, I remember."

3) "If yoy go around saying, "I've a miserable life, 'I'll show you whaT miserable really is. If you go around saying, "I've a wonderful life, 'I'll show you what wonderful really is."



FROM: PLAY THE BALL WHERE THE MONKEY DROPS IT

The train stories

Story 1
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A grandma patting her grand-children sat beside me. Looking at the baby.. ouch so cuteeeee! Thoughts just came to my mind. From such a TINY being... slowly oever the years, the kid will grow up and mature to an adult.... How astonish that human can grow.. The baby have such calm look on his face. No matter how loud the train go wheeeeee or how rocky the ride is. He sleep peacefully. Why? Have we ever wonder?


A child was carried in his mum for 9 mths+. For this 9 mths, the child is soooo close to the mum heart. =) As the child was born and grow, even at the age of 2+ the child will always run to his mum for hugs. Why? Just like when he was still a baby, he need to listen to his mum heartbeat; he need to smell his mum. That give him assurance, affirmation. That give him comfort; That make him felt loved.

As time passes, we have forgotten abt all these. Just as pple got too use to going to church, reading bibles....somethings we seems to love the church... the songs... even the scripture.. MORE than we love HIM......

Let us all come back to the first day we accepted Christ. TO find back our first love.
Go back to the first day. Where we were just born. Seeking our mum heartbeat.


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Story 2

As the grandma and the mum depart with the cute baby.... came 2 guys....

guyA: Hey stop playing game la. U can use the time and energy to spend on her instead.

guyB: but she so young....

guyA: u think u very old meh.. u see malaysia... 50+ marrying 20 odd girls only....

guyB: but i dont think i really like her...

guyA: You know what is invest or not? like company... later the company will grow one... and u must try mah.... if this easy one u cant even catch... then later bigger one come... u how? ...



I got so angry to hear such words.... what do they think they are? and what do they take that girl for?! tester goodS? Now i wish someone will be with me during this time, for she will surely go up to them and smack them right in their face!

haiz. their thinking is so corrupted. Every girl is God precious daughter. Who are we that seek for God precious daughter? If u cant protect/love her... then please leave her alone...


God love us so much that he KNEW the suffering. Yet he still send his son to die for our sin.... The pain on Christ, His son.... was reflected back onto him 10 fold! 100folds! check the bible!

Yet he still did not hesitate in sending his Son down to earth. Why ? Because of love.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.

Let us love the way God loves us. It's not going to be easy. Love itself is a sacrifice.
To love and not expecting anything in return. To love at the same time knowing you may be hurt. To love and to bear whatever pain alone. To love whole heartedly... bleeding and wounded.

Only God love can filled our heart. Such is the strength that I would draw to love others.